New Day and a New Perspective

Part of the illness of addiction centers around the expectations of others and my own expectations, which are often very skewed. I woke this morning to the reality that there is only one entity that I need bother with pleasing and that's God. I just need to concentrate on what's right in front of me and nothing else. God loves me just as I am. He always has even when I wasn't very lovable. I've had to ask myself some questions. If my ss's never wish me a Happy Mother's Day does it mean that they love me any less? Not necessarily. It may be more of a matter of respect for their Mom and I really do understand.

I have so much to be grateful for today. I will get to celebrate my oldest ss's birthday with him next week for the first time in 13 years! I couldn't be any happier about him being here. I'm proud of him!! He's a mature and responsible young man and I love him unconditionally. I'm blessed to have him in my life. Thank you, Lord for the gift you gave to me with my ss's. I know that Your plans are so much better than mine and I will place my trust in You.

My youngest ss will be here toward the end of the month and won't be able to stay but for a month. I can't wait to see him either! I love these two with all of my heart. That's what I have to concentrate on. The love that I feel in my heart. I just want to savor every moment with them.

So thank you for all of your kind words! We have such an awesome recovery community and I thank God for each of you daily. I just wanted you all to know that I've found my happy place again.